We had Alexis's first christmas. It was so amazing, seeing her get all excited for her presents. She made out as one spoiled baby. She is almost 9 months old and gosh, the time is flying by. I hate how fast its going. I recently quit my job at Gymboree, so I wouldn't miss anything.
I feel like she is never gonna crawl. She took her 1st step towards crawling today and I was so happy I got to see it. I know they say every baby is different, but it's so frustrating to see babies younger than Alexis crawling. I don't care when people say she is gonna be into everything. I want her into everything at this point.
I loved working at Gymboree, it gave me a chance to be out of the house, and to make some extra money. I didn't want to quit, but I rather quit then miss any of my little girls milestone. It was nice getting the discount and have Alexis always dressed in cute clothes. But I'm glad I left on good terms.
Lately I haven't been feeling so good about myself. I don't feel pretty anymore, I never want to take the time to get all dolled up, even if its just to Walmart. I always used to. I think my new "mom" body is getting to me as well. Whenever I walk by a cute bathing suit, I always say to myself, "I'll never be able to wear a two piece again". It sucks, I mean I love the reason why my body is now like this, but I hate not feeling pretty anymore.
I'm always tired now, it seems no matter how much sleep I get, I'm exhausted the next day. I think my postpartum is still lingering. I'm already on meeds, and I don't want to have to go up a dosage, but I want to feel happy again.
